Saturday, May 3, 2014

Why Are Your Late 20s So Awkward?

My 28th birthday is in 2 months and lately I've been feeling like I'm in a really weird place in my life.  I'm no longer 21 and partying all the time, but I'm also not settling down like everyone else on my newsfeed that's getting married, buying a house, and having a baby ( and not particularly in that order).  Not that there's anything good or bad about either of those things, but I just can't seem to figure out what side I'm leaning to these days. Some days I can't wait to be married, buy a house, and have a baby, and other days I feel like my youth and freedom are falling out from under me.

The more and more I think about it, it's kind of like being in those awkward tween years as a kid.  You couldn't wait to be older and do "cool" things, but you still held onto some of your "childish" tendencies.  So I guess now I'm a tween in my twenties... and it's just as awkward as it was then.  I can't decide if I wan't be reckless or have a baby (although at this time in my life, having a baby might just also be reckless).  

I think I just thought I would have it more together right now - that I would be on the verge of doing all those "grown up" things I spent so much time dreaming about in my early 20s... but now I'm not sure if that's what I want.  Part of me wants to rebel against this next stage in my life and hold on the person I was 10 years ago, hell even 5 years ago, and the other part feels like I should be doing all the things my peers are.  

I'm just not there yet and I don't know when I'll be.  

I'm sorry if you came upon this post looking for advice on how to traverse this awkward stage, but I don't have many answers right now.  The only thing I can think of is do what feels right for you... you just have to figure out what "right" is.